I do not fit the mold, I am looking for the mold, my mold, to make some sense while others try to make some c3nts at my expense! It is always that way!

 Feeling reeling spieling peeling meaning stealing appealing soooooooo in these very NOW and present moments, so precious - of mine here!

Naked, no covers, the cold of the 7:23 am Sunday morning presses into my nakedness now! The warmth below me from my bed that I am laying on now is combatting somewhat weakly that advance of the cold on my bareness, feeling rather my bearness, my age, my limits and growing limitations! I am 70 and showing it, a wine belly that refuses to abandon me as I try half-heartedly to diminish it!

It is all okay, I have pressing matters, things so definite, so pressing, so need in of my addressing as I lay here now so alive, so connected,so fervent, mind galloping, leaving me train speed rushes of feelings and ideas , missions to complete, peaks to scale, myself to uncover, in all my un-dressing, no vinaigrette for this salad I happily refer to as my present aging and youthfulling childishly deliciciously unapologeticALLY now here present, my gift to myself, my recovery, my cold and warm bareness, a bear a lamb, an owl, a toad and a frog, the red fox, the pausing lion, the feline, the posture , the poise of very little noise yet white sounds I do hear all around!

What am I afraid of? What do I have to apologize for? My brazenness, my showing and revealing too much of myself, my affronted? My lack of judgement, my lack of your modesty and shyness and being offended, upset, mad, disturbed by my writing and pictured, all spontaneous, first -take, unedited all here in the now this moment, my moment, ur moment if you are reading and looking!?!?

Am I being selfish? I suppose I am. Am I exhibiting myself, my thoughts, my feelings? Yes Ibam.

I am content in my unsetlingness, my activity, my randiness, my bearness, my inquisitiveness, my hunger, my searching, my aloneness, my lost-ness-mess-ready-to-confess-reveal-share-my-ALL-too-much-I-know-NESSES!

So be it, so be me, I be me, you be you, happy to meet you!

I am a simple man but in my head and thoughts feelings emotions a complicator when I should simply be a simplifyo

I am Ill fit, unfit, a misfit, a other function, I am not to be understood, I make myself hard to be under or over of even in between stood, no ne much does doth me c

H comprehend blend, I do not really bend much at all, I am on my own self chosen path, I did the simple math, each night, yes, sure, I am happy to say it, happiest when I take my bath, away from other’s tongue bath and their hurtful, harmful wrath!

I am myself in my aloneness , my knowing that I am friendly but when gotten to know a pain, a drain, no one wants to work so hard, working hard is so difficult to do! Do not get relief, neither soiled, just enjoy the moment, find your joy, live long as you do not judge,

I am a gambler with my words, a word gambler, I throw my own dice, I face my consequences, I accept that I have done some wrongs and must pay that pied piper often enough, it is my payback, my fate, I get a certain tangle, I am then so dangle angle dangled!

I am so tired, I work here on my empty, I can barely put this out, some of this is so amateur, so not professional, nad ass, incomplete work, thoughts barely legible, bare so now rate, rateluy under and even over stood! What a mess, and yet proud I am, said I would star art start, and here I have, I am, I am doing just what I said I must do, transcribe thoughts and feeling to word to be read back late even later! Tony

Happy Monday, January 1st, 2023, happies and healthiest new year ever! Tony 1/1/2024

my head and shoulders, no, not the dandruff cpshampoo! Just bare sun in all its timely now ahora agora states of being so fully charged and alive!

 Enjoy my head shots! Cheers, Tony  happy Thursday, December 21, 2023

The thrill of it all, the thrill trill spill swill of each and e dry seconds in each moment moanment all! Tony

Happiest and healthiest New Year 2024 ever yet! Tony  January 1st, , 2024 hairiest happiestvModay ever!