I am just a cock whore wanting to be physically penetrated, violated, loved, greased, ground, pound, pierced, punctured, played, betrayed, filled with so much gunk and sea men all at once, repeatedly Pete-edly I pass out and become supremely sublimely oblivious to all in a state of fallen from grace disgrace ace! Assed space!

 

Cock me good fair frantic frisky fearless feisty mmmmmm yummoohhhh men

All at once, trounce pounce denounce mmmmmm my sorry merry willing ass!

We all want it, no matter who we are, we all want this in some fashion

We are so scared about it that we cannot finish any of it in our heads,

We are unable to finish our desires, our fantasies are so incomplete,

We are not available to others, much less to ourselves as he crave to

Be loved, touched, held, hugged, budgeted till we cannot help ourselves.

We are so timid, too afraid, we cannot go where it seems most natural

To go, to be, to be there, had, mad, glad, bad, sad, cad, your pad, mine!?

Drink helps and if we are in control of our addictions to wine , beer and

More, we may in fact survive it all as others are thereafound us d we 

All let loose and have our ways, have our days, enjoy our states of

Undress, dismays, plays , flays, crays, prays, utter and complete sooo

Going along without restraints, without barriers, without walls, just

Us trusting and soooo Hopi g for the very best and not the very worst

Which happens as for most of us let loose we are a total, utter disgrace!

My naked being is my anchor, finding my foundation, filling in my body, building my self esteem, bathing my soul

 I am so afraid that I have lost that meaning

I am myself lost amongst the man/woman

I am cause enough to rally to pick myself

Up naked off my bed as I sleep comfortably 

Sooooo sublimely simply myself naked and

Have socks on only when extremely cold

As my nakedness is me and my invitation

To myself and others to join me nakedly 

And we can explore ourselves and the other

And gain back the basic confidence of feel,

So feeling grand and not ashamed or not

Embarrassed at our mutual bareness our

Female and male brut raw primitive bearness

As we are born u educated, we have nothing

Just the skin on our bones and organs and

So we must learn how to handle ourselves

And celebrate ourselves and all that is us!

Go on, take me as I am!

Do it!

Kiss me tender, kiss me rough, kiss me!

Being true being mending not scared and yet terribly scared! Like all of us! Scared shitless!

 Love my liberty, it seems so vague so evanescent!

It is fleeing fleeting flighty fragile fragrant fresh

So fraught with absolute consuming terror to scare 

The very mightiest of all of us, me included, I am

So afraid, I am so helpless and yet so fearless and

So brave, I go forth, I March forward, I claim my

Uncertainties, my quests and questions and try and

Figure out my proper gender as the internet and so

Much free and available nakedness of the sex’s and

Everything in between has flung me into a spiral of

Possibilities and things that I have never done, so

Never seen or thought of before, so much to possibly

Experience and come to understand or come to grips 

With that. I fucking wonder who the fuck I really am,

What I can or may be, what the hell I have been missing,

Why am I so bloody naive, I am a blithering mess, areal

Fucked-up mature 70 year old man that is wondering so

Often : “ what the guck am I, what the fuck is all of thisM?”

So scared to be true and visible and understood, real and not fake to ourselves, we hide within ourselves from ourselves for fear we may not recover or go on if we see who and what we really are!

 We are scared to death of what and who we really are!

We cannot face the reality of what we really are so we

Remain perpetually caged and behind bars for fear of

What we might do if we acted and lived as ourselves

Free to be exactly ourselves. It scares us to death and

So we hide and live in constant fear of ourselves and

Our powers over others to inviolate inialate  them yes

Pulverize them and us to smithersmuthereens so dast 

Dastardly so that we hide hide hide in deathly fear of

Ourselves and our immense powers of pure destruction

Of the human race and as life on this planet as we know it!

I am so sickly fixated with penises and hairy bodies naked and animal, so scared to admit it, so silenced in fear,mit arouses me greatly just to see the word “ faggot “, male naked gay sex, imaging I may, be, too!

 

Am I or am I just addicted to male nudity?

The more body hair on male or female

The more aroused I get, fantasies behind

My closed eyes more potent than those on

oN, better OFF, more arousing, more piercing,

More effective, more climatic than on screen,

I dance, groan, I strut my gay nakedness like

A naked wild bull in a pen with a naked mature

Matador with his steely long sword and blood-

Drenched cape and troubadour hat, those shoes

Too, that dust wrenched up, the smell of sweet

Sweat, the abundant wild body hair, the feel of

This moment, my life or my death!? That instant

Of arousal, the fired-up loins, the lions let loose,

The other raging bull, forget that matador, just

Give me that , those raving mad- nostril bulls,

To lead me to climax, to invade me my person

My mouth and the whole of  asshole , to claim

Then as rightfully theirs, to make my penis te so

Spend pound grow, e flame engorged hot red blood,

A total complete sill of all my senses my manhood

About to burst into molten semened beautiful release

Breed me my loins repeating overflowing me so to so now

Blow out my brains and cook my male nakedness forever

Till you bulls fuck me with rampant penises once again!

Whether or not I am I am a happy mature 70 yr old 

Naked handsome , beautiful wine-bellied man! I am!! 

Nothing is what it seems, much more,so mucH more, whole other worlds right here within our very own worlds within/ without this glorious world we are born into

 

Without our consent , we know and never knew 

Anything at all about any of it, never consulted 

Never given a choice to to choose to or not to

Choose any of this. That’s just the way it had

Always been. So get used to it, accept it or

Not, try and find your place in it, you are just 

one more than before with many more being

Born in just the same manner just some are

More lucky than others, some got no luck at 

All! So toughen up if you can, take it and run

With it! See where you can make it,myeah,

Make it go for you while you have the will,

For that will will more likely be torn away

Insidiously, purposely, constantly away from

You so you are nothing more than their pawn.

You will never really know it, you will not

Even likely guess that your purpose here is

Solely for sure and horribly so to serve others

Never even really serving yourself for that

Would serve no purpose for these others and

So they would use everything at their disposal

To make it so nothing ever really happens unless

It benefits them first without a care in the world

For you or any others as that is being kind and

Generous, noble and honest, not bullying and

Not selfish and they know nothing at all of

Those feelings or actions and so destroy them

Nip them in the bud, no flowers at all, and they 

say “ You do not have the killer instinct! “ you

Are clearly not one of us, you are nothing at all!

Give! Give it! Yeah! All! Give it to me! Now! Go a head aahhh your head, waiting,impatient!

 Want it all! Here! Now! In a stall! Just give it your withal!!

We both want it! We know that one IT is all we want! No

Ned to read the manual, we are way past that, them engines

Like a locomotive, are churning and fired so to not stop till

There’s a mutual, natural, naked, bullish battering arming

Crash , teeth gnash, temples flayed eyebrows stenciled so

Furloughs of furloughing grants pants, off they come, kick

Lick so knickers reveal knockers as bras are tossed, panties

Pitched, underpants on myself were never there as I love 

The contact of bare skin and cock and hairy balls to demon

Rough ranging cowboy stench of that rawhide and no show

You know, no showers or bathing for days so rather pungent

Rather rife in fleshy hairy male ripeness , I turn-off for many

I am sure and yet that heat that passion overcomes it all as

That desire to release to be set totally free and out of control,

To have been taken to another pilot, to have been consumed

In animal rawness and the basest base and bottom of barrel

The filthy truth of coupling Randy ranti g raging animals so

Heated so sweaty so out of our mind’s delirious glorious mad!

Cachaca take me to your pilot! Agora!